It's raining outside. Feels fitting for my heart is heavy. I do not believe God would withhold a precious gift to his son or daughter without a greater reason behind it. God grants many wonderful gifts to his children. He is my heavenly Father and just as my earthly father wouldn't withhold a gift he could provide, neither would my heavenly one. So it is no use to fret and wonder why I am living in the current circumstances that I am. Clearly, this is where God has me in this moment. Why is acceptance so hard? Especially when my basic needs are provided for. What a joy it is to have shelter, food, family, friends, and a job. I am so beyond blessed yet it feels so easy to look around and see what is absent from my life. Instead of looking towards the absences or lacking places in my life - I should be focusing on the wonderful gifts. Even the ability to write my thoughts out on this blog is a gift. Still, my eyes drift to the lack. Oh Lord, lift my eyes and my heart.

Nothing but Jesus

Nothing But Jesus, nothing but Jesus, nothing but Jesus will do.

I cannot hope in this or that.

I cannot ward off all despair.

What can I cling to in this 'ol life?

No, nothing but Jesus will do.

There is no gain from all this toil.

All must rot or chip away.

Everything will end it's true.

So, nothing but Jesus will do.

Seeking to gain for just ourselves

Why do you seek and strive this way?

Oh dear heart, take care to learn

Nothing but Jesus will do.

Though I obtain my hearts desire

and win the love of my fellow men

Surely, its good to lay it down

For nothing but Jesus will do.