It is in gratitude that I find myself compelled to write this note. I just finished reading A Severe Mercy by Shedlon Vanauken. Truly, I was drawn to this book from the very first word until the last. It is an autobiographical story of Sheldon's love for his wife "Davy", the story of their walks to faith in Christ, his dealing with his grief over her untimely death, and throughout the book his friendship with C.S. Lewis. I must admit, this look at C.S. Lewis is refreshing and real. A view from a friend instead of the many admirers of his books and theology. His letters that he wrote to Vanauken which are shared are also poignant and refreshingly raw.
My heart is full after taking this little journey into Mr. Vanauken's life. I am moved at the depth of relationship two folks can find in a shared love but moved perhaps even more profoundly by the relationship all three of them (Lewis, Vanuken, Davy) had with their God. I find myself in awe with Vanauken at the severe mercy of God's hand on his own life. A view one can only take after long reflection and humble submission to God.
I am indebted to the book for leading me on a journey to question my own relationship with my Lord which led me to realizing the chasm that is felt between us is more often than not due to my pursuits of things other than Christ. After all, my all is to be found in Him. I need not venture to find other hopes, dreams, love, satisfaction, security, adventure, or anything else outside of Him. When I am following closely after my Lord, I will find that He is the author and perfect0r of my faith and the most perfect guide for my life. As this book illustrates, when we die to ourselves, we find our life in Him and our true joy. It's crazy...I know.
I would encourage anyone looking for a quality read to pick this book up. This story like so many of our own stories reveals the beauty that is often found amidst deep and personal tragedy and enduring love.
Far too often, I desire to share quotes from beloved books that I have come to cherish but I often find them inadequate at revealing the tone and beauty of the books as a whole. This time is no different. So much of the beauty is found in the whole not in part.
So, be blessed dear friends near and far, tagged and untagged. The fact that you took the time to read my little note means the world. May you find rest in the untamed and often misunderstood mercy of our God.
